Overwhelmed doesn't even begin to cover it.


It's not really just the whole like, student teaching thing and the finances. It's just life in general.

Top things off, I really don't even have a place where I can study or even sleep right now. Between the fact that my sister has temporarily moved back home and that my parents have officially adjusted to us not living at home at all, our previous extra room (that we are now having to live in) has turned into extra storage of bicycles and other random boxes and objects that were previously stored in the basement or garage. With the recent addition to the family of a baby (aka: a new car for my dad), which is now housed in the garage, everything there has been moved into this studio apartment. Thankfully the hot water has been turned on up there (it's usually off and all the hot water was off while my family was at the beach [which I was supposed to meet up with after State fair]).

Regardless: things are going better, and after over a week, I am no longer sleeping in a sleeping bag amidst things that are not mine while my stuff hovers out on the front porch, lacking anywhere else to place it. But things have been shifted for now, which is good. I guess I had planned for more time between coming back from Iowa and going down to State Fair to live and rearrange my things.

It went down like this: cram in loads of classes, come near death during dead week, take finals, move, graduate, move more, pack for iowa, leave for iowa, stay in iowa all summer, come back from iowa, go straight to state fair, come home, go straight to teacher in-service and then to student teaching. No time in between to figure out what i need for the next step. Just one at a time, which is good, unless one takes the time to realize that I brought in zero income over the summer for upcoming rent, and that all of my things, save what I took with me to iowa, is still down in Corvallis (considering I do not live at home anymore).

This leaves me in a bind, because I'm missing some things that would be nice to have, but lack the time and funds to make the trip down there. I don't even have a bed to sleep in when I move back down to Corvallis, although, I suppose that should be the least of my worries when I can't even afford my rent right now. Lame. I have to work. I know I'm not supposed to with the program and all, but I can't afford not to. I'm not a bumming type. I can't just bum off of my friends. And having no location to live would only add to my stress level (that I am struggling to keep in balance).