Still struggling with that whole thing where I think teachers are really out to get me and end me and make my life miserable... they aren't. they want to help me, to be my friend, i guess that line just gets kinda frustrating when you calculate in how many times they are super unclear with their directions within the course of action... but that aside, it's really become a struggle for me to realize that teachers are NOT out to get me, and the corrections they give me are not directed at my personality, but at the work I have created and it is all based on what needs to be altered in that range of things, and not on my emotions. it's all the paper. all the logic of it. nothing emotional.


why must I always be soo freaking emotional all the time?

it's so annoying.

anyway, today in class we did more activities, Velez detailed some of the mistakes he had made last time and we went through ways he could change it - I guess you could say this was all reflection. then we talked about learning styles and if they even exist or not. then we talked a bit about marzano learning styles and then went on to do a group activity based on the combination of marzano styles and R&F variables.

in the second class today 554, we went through our lesson plans again and critiqued each other more.

again... still struggling with presenting things. Becks and I are kinda behind right now in that we haven't been able to really work though things together and organize it all to the point where we know who is doing what and how we are putting it together and presenting it to the teachers at the workshop.

last night, i caved and bought myself some teaching books. like, because honestly, i have zero idea how to teach and not feel personal with things. i should really go to CAPS... need to make an appointment. maybe another thing I can do is talk with Catherine Alden - she used to not only be a high school counselor, but also a principle and a teacher. plus, she's all about classroom management as that is the class I'm currently in with her. I really need to be able to be open and honest with my professors here and with my cooperating teachers back in Hood River. I should probably also work on gathering more organizational tools to work with when i go back home to provide for mom so that she doesn't freak out tooo super a lot of much when I do move back home.